My first dayz back to sydney...

was a tired day today... keep on sleeping but still not enough! sitting flight for 7 hours wasnt a good experience even though it is A380. seriously not ok... but no choice, if u are flying to see n spent time with someone then u will think it is worth to do tat!!! yeah... for me, it worth to fly back to malaysia but always never feel like flying back to sydney where i need to leave my loved one...

maybe one day later i will so crazy n so wanted to see him by taking 23 hours flight!! will i? yeah... i will if i got the money!!

crying baby... haha this is wat he called me... i admit i m because i keep on crying the moment i think of him!!! wat a torture and bad feeling... m i too greedy? i had already spent 1.5 months with him most of the time n we had our relaxing trip but still i wan to be with him more....

i have never let him know tat i feel safe, blessful, happy and stress free when i m with him... he is so good to me n i wan it more... i so hope i can just stay with him every single moment now but i m kinda dream on...

like he said, he dun like me always be sad and complaining!! so i will listen to u dear... i will live my life well and study well here and i won't let u worry me much... i wanna thank u, dear so taking care of me these days... i m so much appreciated and in love with it...

seriously, i won't wasting my precious time as much as last time anymore. i wan to use it well and plan well for my future. i wan to earn money as much as i can!! i hope i can. i wan to fly to the another half of the world to find him as i had promised!!!

today is messy... n my sadness accompanying me all dayz... i hope i can get over it fast but i think it is gonna to use up a very very long til i met him i guess... if let me choose again, i will never want to leave malaysia n come all the way to study...

i hope for a better tomolo ... =)

ps: i will always love u, my dear =）

blessful...

A wonderful day will always start wit a wonderful breakfast... indeed it is!!

so happy tat this morning my beloved housemate had made me a tuna sandwich and milo as my nutrition brekafast before exam... so nice n sweet!! so warm to have it during winter time n exam period....

finally i had sat for my first exam paper... wasnt tat bad as i think... in fact i think should be quite alrite kuar... hopefully can pass the subject...

sometimes i do think myself is quite blessful to have housemates that was not as countable and stingy like others... and they are keen to listen to u n try to solve problems wit me together which i think is so much wonderful n ease my life study oversea... so memang 出门在外靠朋友！！！

in conclusion, my first exam in autumn is so far so good n i had make it through... so next must really work hard on my coming two paper before my holidays can start!!!

i love all my friends and of coz my jimui.... hope they have a wonderful day like me... =D

1st exam in autumn semester!!!

it is enough!!! stop wasting time!!! only left 10 hours already.... need to focus on exam revision d....

just take a long breathe n leaving msg here.... = wasting time!!

anyway, i should continue wit my revision d but seriously no idea wat to study on... is the first time exam tat i dunno wat to study n not because overload with study materials. wat the hell!!!

okie. see ya n good luck in exam!!

ciao =)

a glory dayz??! i doubt...

Leave another half an hour then i would like to say bye to 'today' n welcome ' tomorrow'... haiz again i m stuck on my bed for more than half a day, nearly 14 hours i guess. just finished printed out all the articles tat i need to read for friday exam. n finished my 2 hours dinner n it comes to the end of the day... i tot each min got 6o sec but why my 60 min gone so fast???!!!

oh my god, wat i m doing rite now?! yeah... blogging... so hardworking in blogging not like me, but so lazy in study (memang like me!) ok... i shall not waste time anymore!!! i will turn myself focus on the exam table (yeah, i practically set a table for studying n look so pro there but the laziest fellow in the house goes no where but honoured by me, =P)



oh... anyway, never think tat my jimui will read my blog... so paiseh la... summore kena scolded lagi o... but i guess she will oni read it once in a blue moon!! so cannot really complain much la...

very disappointed again, waiting for tat fellow's contact for whole day but i seem like being forgetting by him! 没良心的家伙哦！！ ok set... 3 weeks ignoring him! ^.^

okok... is time for me to bathe n turn to my study table n study probably... yeah... left a day to go to war (exam!) hope i wun sacrified in it!! anyway stil got another 2 wars coming... must really practice well for those!!

yet another dayz

oh no... another day gone, 2 more days to go!!! again, i wasted a day for doing nothing.... suppose to got up early morning today but like usual, i only woke up in the evening... look at the clock n realised i must get up in a second to rush to the bank.... god... i m so lucky tat i actually sempat to get into the bank n queue for it!!! i guess everyone oni go to the bank when it is about to close... super a lot people!!!

so long din eat bread liao, so bought a aud$3.90 roll of bread for my high tea aka ms.venus's breakfast... =) my eyes suddenly turn to the laptop n thinking if i've got something important to do or wat?? indeed... yeah... my assignment result!!! finally i saw it in my mailbox... so happy to get back the result although it wasnt a good mark!!

sometimes i really hate the one tat i care... dun really need to know who but damn it... how can he din reply my msg n did not bother to tel me wat time is his flight back!! i keep waiting n waiting but i disappointed again... memang mei liang xin!!! heh... dun wan talk to him for 3 weeks d!!! hate him...

back to my study progression, i would said i m slower than turtle!!! n wat's more, i got no idea wat to study for the friday exam... n dun feel like study for my mps n taxation law now... so ended up, an empty day!!

i dun like this kind of me!!! i wan to change... i really wan to change the attitude!!!

so, i shall not draggy here... tat's all for today... hope i have got a good sleep n concentrate tomorrow! cannot wasting time again please!!!! i beg u, venus....

the worst me, venus...

被欺骗的感情。。。

oh my godness...

i have been waiting the whole day from 9a.m till 12a.m but still i not yet received my assignment's result which tat subject is going to be examine on friday... summore the questions are based on assignment!!! my lecturer lied to us... she summore sent us email on last friday to remind us that she will be sending back our result on monday!! but wat in the end??? lecturer always like tat... T.T''

really got no mood to read on the chapters n heaps n heaps of articles!!! so lazy... (just like the usual me)

been sleepless for the past few days... i m now thinking m i having fear of exam or wat...

anyway, even though the circumstance is tat exam on the friday but i m still being the expert in time wasting... wasting at no where.... perhaps a few minutes here... but the current me, Venus, just not energetic to focus on reading n reading n revise... i m hopeless!!!

i think i really need to learn from rou rou... she can still concentrate in her work exercise n reading while i making noise there... so paiseh man...

anyway... feeling empty tonight... n another sleepless nite to me...

i hope i can get bac my assignment result asap... dun treat me like tat...

i dun like suffer but i m living in suffering stage currently...

加油哦！！ 蔡曉莹， 加油！！！

oh... today is Queen's birthday (a holiday but not a wonderful day to me!)

With love

静静的端午节。。。

Yet another Sunday... just like usual, slept till evening... then done nothing much n just read thru a chapter...

oh today is 端午节man... still got dumpling in the fridge but i m lazy to eat it... anyway i wan to greet my grandpa first... happy birthday o, grandpa!! know that he can't hear n see but never mind la, i just wan to wish him only... hope he got a healthy body...

when human comes to a certain age, i think our body machine sure complain n start to give problems... maybe they are yelling for a rest!! =P even now (not to say i m old but...) i start to feel my body getting so much older n not functioning well, at least my brain did tat to me... feel hard to study n concentrate... must start exercise tomorrow... cannot keep on like tat!!

got my lecturer mail last night, so so so sad... he dun let me redo my assignment n summore yell at me =( why so unfair??! why other classes can do that but yet i can't... i dun wan to be the lowest... in fact i dun think i m tat worst!!! why? why? why? ( i can't believe it)

been thinking n thinking for the whole day... nothing can change still....

while wasting my time... i glance thru FB n realise tat i m alone and lonely... i tot i close to my frens and i have a lot of frens but actually i m not... i m just always n like usual isolated on an island without people's notices... even though i always said i dun mind on the friendship thingy but deep in my heart, i do take it seriously...

dunno y... i tot people like me who have been experienced in friendship problems before should have no problems in handling alone mode... but i dun think is possible for me... always tat scare of loneliness... m i having problems? problems n problems me... haiz tot somebody may be my buddy or best frens but i think tat people doesnt feel n reckon like the way i think n feel...

dun be sad, ying... u must be strong n tough... u are always tough!!!

Ganbateh!!!

端午节快乐 =）