My first dayz back to sydney...

was a tired day today... keep on sleeping but still not enough! sitting flight for 7 hours wasnt a good experience even though it is A380. seriously not ok... but no choice, if u are flying to see n spent time with someone then u will think it is worth to do tat!!! yeah... for me, it worth to fly back to malaysia but always never feel like flying back to sydney where i need to leave my loved one...

maybe one day later i will so crazy n so wanted to see him by taking 23 hours flight!! will i? yeah... i will if i got the money!!

crying baby... haha this is wat he called me... i admit i m because i keep on crying the moment i think of him!!! wat a torture and bad feeling... m i too greedy? i had already spent 1.5 months with him most of the time n we had our relaxing trip but still i wan to be with him more....

i have never let him know tat i feel safe, blessful, happy and stress free when i m with him... he is so good to me n i wan it more... i so hope i can just stay with him every single moment now but i m kinda dream on...

like he said, he dun like me always be sad and complaining!! so i will listen to u dear... i will live my life well and study well here and i won't let u worry me much... i wanna thank u, dear so taking care of me these days... i m so much appreciated and in love with it...

seriously, i won't wasting my precious time as much as last time anymore. i wan to use it well and plan well for my future. i wan to earn money as much as i can!! i hope i can. i wan to fly to the another half of the world to find him as i had promised!!!

today is messy... n my sadness accompanying me all dayz... i hope i can get over it fast but i think it is gonna to use up a very very long til i met him i guess... if let me choose again, i will never want to leave malaysia n come all the way to study...

i hope for a better tomolo ... =)

ps: i will always love u, my dear =）

blessful...

A wonderful day will always start wit a wonderful breakfast... indeed it is!!

so happy tat this morning my beloved housemate had made me a tuna sandwich and milo as my nutrition brekafast before exam... so nice n sweet!! so warm to have it during winter time n exam period....

finally i had sat for my first exam paper... wasnt tat bad as i think... in fact i think should be quite alrite kuar... hopefully can pass the subject...

sometimes i do think myself is quite blessful to have housemates that was not as countable and stingy like others... and they are keen to listen to u n try to solve problems wit me together which i think is so much wonderful n ease my life study oversea... so memang 出门在外靠朋友！！！

in conclusion, my first exam in autumn is so far so good n i had make it through... so next must really work hard on my coming two paper before my holidays can start!!!

i love all my friends and of coz my jimui.... hope they have a wonderful day like me... =D

1st exam in autumn semester!!!

it is enough!!! stop wasting time!!! only left 10 hours already.... need to focus on exam revision d....

just take a long breathe n leaving msg here.... = wasting time!!

anyway, i should continue wit my revision d but seriously no idea wat to study on... is the first time exam tat i dunno wat to study n not because overload with study materials. wat the hell!!!

okie. see ya n good luck in exam!!

ciao =)

a glory dayz??! i doubt...

Leave another half an hour then i would like to say bye to 'today' n welcome ' tomorrow'... haiz again i m stuck on my bed for more than half a day, nearly 14 hours i guess. just finished printed out all the articles tat i need to read for friday exam. n finished my 2 hours dinner n it comes to the end of the day... i tot each min got 6o sec but why my 60 min gone so fast???!!!

oh my god, wat i m doing rite now?! yeah... blogging... so hardworking in blogging not like me, but so lazy in study (memang like me!) ok... i shall not waste time anymore!!! i will turn myself focus on the exam table (yeah, i practically set a table for studying n look so pro there but the laziest fellow in the house goes no where but honoured by me, =P)



oh... anyway, never think tat my jimui will read my blog... so paiseh la... summore kena scolded lagi o... but i guess she will oni read it once in a blue moon!! so cannot really complain much la...

very disappointed again, waiting for tat fellow's contact for whole day but i seem like being forgetting by him! 没良心的家伙哦！！ ok set... 3 weeks ignoring him! ^.^

okok... is time for me to bathe n turn to my study table n study probably... yeah... left a day to go to war (exam!) hope i wun sacrified in it!! anyway stil got another 2 wars coming... must really practice well for those!!

yet another dayz

oh no... another day gone, 2 more days to go!!! again, i wasted a day for doing nothing.... suppose to got up early morning today but like usual, i only woke up in the evening... look at the clock n realised i must get up in a second to rush to the bank.... god... i m so lucky tat i actually sempat to get into the bank n queue for it!!! i guess everyone oni go to the bank when it is about to close... super a lot people!!!

so long din eat bread liao, so bought a aud$3.90 roll of bread for my high tea aka ms.venus's breakfast... =) my eyes suddenly turn to the laptop n thinking if i've got something important to do or wat?? indeed... yeah... my assignment result!!! finally i saw it in my mailbox... so happy to get back the result although it wasnt a good mark!!

sometimes i really hate the one tat i care... dun really need to know who but damn it... how can he din reply my msg n did not bother to tel me wat time is his flight back!! i keep waiting n waiting but i disappointed again... memang mei liang xin!!! heh... dun wan talk to him for 3 weeks d!!! hate him...

back to my study progression, i would said i m slower than turtle!!! n wat's more, i got no idea wat to study for the friday exam... n dun feel like study for my mps n taxation law now... so ended up, an empty day!!

i dun like this kind of me!!! i wan to change... i really wan to change the attitude!!!

so, i shall not draggy here... tat's all for today... hope i have got a good sleep n concentrate tomorrow! cannot wasting time again please!!!! i beg u, venus....

the worst me, venus...

被欺骗的感情。。。

oh my godness...

i have been waiting the whole day from 9a.m till 12a.m but still i not yet received my assignment's result which tat subject is going to be examine on friday... summore the questions are based on assignment!!! my lecturer lied to us... she summore sent us email on last friday to remind us that she will be sending back our result on monday!! but wat in the end??? lecturer always like tat... T.T''

really got no mood to read on the chapters n heaps n heaps of articles!!! so lazy... (just like the usual me)

been sleepless for the past few days... i m now thinking m i having fear of exam or wat...

anyway, even though the circumstance is tat exam on the friday but i m still being the expert in time wasting... wasting at no where.... perhaps a few minutes here... but the current me, Venus, just not energetic to focus on reading n reading n revise... i m hopeless!!!

i think i really need to learn from rou rou... she can still concentrate in her work exercise n reading while i making noise there... so paiseh man...

anyway... feeling empty tonight... n another sleepless nite to me...

i hope i can get bac my assignment result asap... dun treat me like tat...

i dun like suffer but i m living in suffering stage currently...

加油哦！！ 蔡曉莹， 加油！！！

oh... today is Queen's birthday (a holiday but not a wonderful day to me!)

With love

静静的端午节。。。

Yet another Sunday... just like usual, slept till evening... then done nothing much n just read thru a chapter...

oh today is 端午节man... still got dumpling in the fridge but i m lazy to eat it... anyway i wan to greet my grandpa first... happy birthday o, grandpa!! know that he can't hear n see but never mind la, i just wan to wish him only... hope he got a healthy body...

when human comes to a certain age, i think our body machine sure complain n start to give problems... maybe they are yelling for a rest!! =P even now (not to say i m old but...) i start to feel my body getting so much older n not functioning well, at least my brain did tat to me... feel hard to study n concentrate... must start exercise tomorrow... cannot keep on like tat!!

got my lecturer mail last night, so so so sad... he dun let me redo my assignment n summore yell at me =( why so unfair??! why other classes can do that but yet i can't... i dun wan to be the lowest... in fact i dun think i m tat worst!!! why? why? why? ( i can't believe it)

been thinking n thinking for the whole day... nothing can change still....

while wasting my time... i glance thru FB n realise tat i m alone and lonely... i tot i close to my frens and i have a lot of frens but actually i m not... i m just always n like usual isolated on an island without people's notices... even though i always said i dun mind on the friendship thingy but deep in my heart, i do take it seriously...

dunno y... i tot people like me who have been experienced in friendship problems before should have no problems in handling alone mode... but i dun think is possible for me... always tat scare of loneliness... m i having problems? problems n problems me... haiz tot somebody may be my buddy or best frens but i think tat people doesnt feel n reckon like the way i think n feel...

dun be sad, ying... u must be strong n tough... u are always tough!!!

Ganbateh!!!

端午节快乐 =）

Garden CleaninG =)

oh my god...

it is really been such a long long time that i leave my garden grown with grass!! (empty for so long)

dun really wan to leave it blank but been busy with my life so far...

after all, i should have said "i lived good, i m happy, i m content". haha =) i m feeling happy too since in march, i've got my family to come n spent a week with me, then in april, i've got my buddy to come n enjoy the holiday with me then been having a lot of fun this semester...

well, did i do well? hmm... i must admit that i didn't!!! i could always do much more better but dunno why i just didn't. Just like the usual me... always that draggy!

all of sudden, i felt that i have got so much to write but yet dun really want to stress out...

anyway, my life is full with happening stuffs and memories in the past few months but sadly to say i not managed to write it out to share... so, i shall not let it missed out again...

i promised myself that i must continue writing my so called diary everyday start from now!!!

well i guess i could.... ganbateh neh! 加油哦！！

=)

HoLiday still on...

Week 2 of autumn sem... ... (7th Feb 08)

Coming back from adelaide makes me feel so depress again... sometimes i just hate to face reality! but i just dunno why i wanted to keep escaping from my own life... m i not happy with it? why wouldn't i have the courage?? i do questioning myself...

another week had begun with tiredness. i dun wan tat to happen but i just couldn't help myself from being dragging. the classes wasn't as tough as i predict and it did goes well n groups formed for piles of assignments... this is our life!

days gone very fast. too fast till i haven't breathe enough and yet the week comes to the end of my 3 days classes... isn't that a bit too fast? i think people are always so selfish & demanding a lot more! when the week start, we hope pass quick; but when it comes to the end of the week, we hope it slow down it paces.

i have my crazy shopping days on the thursday and friday, saturday and sunday! well, a bit too much for me. =P

sometimes i found myself insane. why would i conclude myself tat way?! even me myself dun understand what is my buying behaviour and what drives me to buy things... i want to admit tat i m not rich enough to own everything but i m and i do wildful enough to simply spend money....where did i spend?! good question!!

Venus, she is really someone to be considered as shopaholic! she can actually buys the items that she likes just like other gals do but she will as well found something else to buy. so, as conclusion is, she is really good n expert in spending money!! From physiological, safety, belonginess, ego till self-actualisation; it was all able to apply on her!! thus, no doubt... after all these wars, she has becoming materialistic like her close fren. is she hopeless?

please... if someone knows her or able to cure her, please do so before she gets it into her uncontrollable n un-changed habit.

now, at this moment, i realised that how a person will feel when he/she dun even know themselves n their own charater... i considered it as the painful and worst ever matters happened in the Venus world...

"Live for a better tomorrow..." ^.^

a mini weekend in meow meow's place...

kampong...



well, i supposed adelaide dun actually called as kampong but as just they treat me as "city mouse" therefore, under the constrast we seems like different... but i m fully enjoyed myself in this peaceful town. the distance wasn't far between the places i like go to...

the memorable piggy in the city is so cute n yet i found myself stupid!

the 3D art by ulla was so fantastic... perhaps some of us just couldn't get the feel but i warmly appreciated wat she had done!
the central market was so much tidy n classy than the 1 we had in sydney... so do we stil called there as kampong? i doubt... by looking them, my frens, buying vege n stuffs is my pleasures n i found it is so adorable to see them tat way...

sitting and strolling around the victoria park with the statue of queen elizabeth, i reckon was another enjoyable moments.

GleneLg, famous beach in adelaide... with the long extended jetty. posers are yet to be justified in this moments!! with the nice scenery and frens, every single one of us has became a perfect poser in front of the camera... especially the wide angle one!
taking a coffee and chat in the cottage house of original pancake was another way of enjoying our midnite during weekend. admiring was here to be realised...

as the end of my trip, "fringe" was the 1 surprising me n keep us walking in the sunday nite...

lastly, thanks for everyone who taking care of me in these few days! n it is a pleasant to meet all of us n get so much closer with u guys n a thousand thanks to my beloved bessy...

(after i ciao only then i found she got a petrol prince waiting for her)

so much troubles and stress, i believed we both can take it wisely and received it in our brilliant mind to settle it in the best dramatic way...

ganbateh =D

a calm weekend in kampong!!

28th Feb

it's a windy morning on thursday morning... i tot a shuttle bus to airport n take a 2 hrs plane to a so-called kampong, adelaide to meet my animal fren...

really very excited! i love the sky n i love the feel of looking from the plane... is really an fantasy sky with neatly clouds...

i love the view n i found a really nice church from the view of the plane as well... i love the nature!!

reaching at adelaide was exciting to me... as i will made my decision to here was sort of unpredictable!! the reason being was i felt very stress in sydney...

i also can admit that i were here in adelaide was totally because i wan to escape from my city life n my abnormal, stressful life in sydney! m i tat pity?? well... seriously, i have no ideas. but whenever i need to face or have to face a certain problems, i felt left out! left out by someone or some people... i just felt messy in my mind... n wasnt prepared to welcoming my new semester... =(

so, running away from city was my only choice to stop myself thinking too much and try my best to prepare myself to face reality which is cruel to me.

on our way getting back to d small city in adelaide wasnt a easy n fine as we were predicted. we spend about 1-2 hours of waiting n keep waiting! well, i wouldnt said is wasting of time because i did used tat much of time well enough to know better of my fren n myself... i really need tat! so thanks meow for spending those time wit me... i enjoyed tat! especially, standing under a tree n enjoying our breakfast in a windy afternoon... it is so simple but yet it was so great to me! so peaceful... ^.^

i love to see everyone tat i know in adelaide... they were so friendly and simple n nice! no strategies, no fighting, no arguing between us. i found calm in my mind! tat was what i want...

simple but a lot more to learn and appreciate!

Fantistic Wild life worLd discoveRy

27th Feb 2008,

this is a day of rest for all of us (me & my housemates)... kinda exciting to us as we are coming to wildlife world in sydney city and supposingly visiting aquarium as well... but time constraints!! =(
never mind is alrite, coz we got plenty of time thought.

it's a sunny day in sydney, nothing special actually. we walk thru the darling harbour and reached our destination.

well, i would said all parks in the city will have a space limit so same as it. it wasn't really big or huge but just enough to keep all wildlife animals...

at first, we were looking at all kind of spiders, ants, bugs etc...


then coming next were the "snakes"... to me, it is very scary n i might have nightmare after seeing it. walking thru all this hall way, i was really shaking and feeling awed!! u just can't felt my fear... but after that, we were walking to the dark side of the park!!!








why would i said dark... because the walk way to there was all dark with the ambience of owl and ghosts voice... well, it seems scary rite? but when we keep explored, we found out all, it was all cute animals but just that they lives in dark... =D


we spent quite sometimes by finding all those animals, kinda fun for me...



what comes next???

obviously, it were koalas & wallaby.... is only borned in aussie =P admired me?!

there are so lovely... i kinda love these animals...

lastly, butterflies were the one said thanks for our visiting at the last part of d park...

this is a trip where i learnt to know which is the most scary, evil, danger animals in aussie...


so be aware when u see animals in aussie o... even though some are small but they are dangered!!!

=D

Sadness...

25 Mar 08


this was my 2nd day in Sydney, i can still remembered it clearly that i feel bored, emptiness & blindness in my heart that what i going n should going to do...


it was Monday, a brand new day for class in new semester! was a busy to me...
like usual... i feel bad & lonely to be alone in Sydney... miss my brothers, daddy n mummy so so much... n my frens... felt badly & miserable in a way

it was middle of the nite, suddenly my face just covered with tear & drip to my jet jet!! i wanted to stop that but it seems like doesn't help. the more i want it to stop but it just keep...

haih... i think adaptation is really important to me now! & a buddy to support also means a lot to me. For whom, stand by me n cheers me up, i thank u so so much... without ur words, i would not have the courage to face my life again...


love u always, someone who always by my side ... ...

D days back in syDney...

hmmm... it is a sunny day in sydney.

arrival in sydney wasn't a happy thing to me as from the plane i need to queue till i reach home which really irritates me a lot!!!

it's really a tired day... catch some sleep & tidy up the room... & going for dinner!!!

what actually surprised me was the Queen Elizabeth 2 - Cunard


it is amazing & extremely huge...

i was imagined if i could travel on this ship with my beloved then it will be very sweet...

by looking at the nice scenery & the ship actually makes me felt better on my first day back in sydney...

miss my family, my bros n my frens a lot... especially all my bestie....

before evening, it wasnt really a good day of mine =(

but i promised someone and also myself that i need to take good care n look forward to my life so i will work on it & to face my beginning of a new semester...

cheerz... =)